ThIs iS Lif3...

Realisation..

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 17:47:35 GMT

for a long time, when i was a little younger, i cant seem to see myself past my mid-20s. i kept wondering why though. was i not interested in what my future holds? no, im interested. was i not sure of what i was going to be like at that age?? yes, i wasnt really sure, and i still am not. but then, now a new theory just came to mind...what if 2012 was real and i had already been given a sign? because by dec 21, 2012, i would have already been 26. how 'bout that?

in the quran and several other religious books, it is foretold that you will see a great bird in the sky. this i saw, but in my dream..was it a sign?

i had ever dreamed of an opening on my ceiling, and in the opening are swirls of magma. it just keeps circling in a slow motion. what does it mean?

today's dream was even freaky. i had dreamt of meeting a friend and her younger sister, except that they dont look exactly the way they are in real life. it's like, the essence is them, but their faces are strangers ive never met - AT ALL. in my dream, i had paid really close attention to the younger sister's face.

what really rang a bell in my head was when i was at woodlands just now - in the same conscious world that im typing this blog - i saw the exact same girl with exact same looks and exact same height. but she was just a stranger. so i have no freakin' clue as to what it means...

what a wonder...

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 17:24:18 GMT

yesterday night as we were waiting for the bus, i looked up. my, what a splendid sight! i've seen it a few times but this one was really clear for all to see...he also looked up and was surprised to know such a thing exists...it was the first time he'd seen it.

as both our heads were kept turned up to the night, passers-by did the same, wondering why.

a rainbow circling the moon!!!

well, the picture was taken using my phone camera, so you can only see a hint of colours around the moon. here are some pics i got off the net that show clearly how it looks like:
they're called lunar corona

2012

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 17:11:45 GMT

i love the movie. a lot. i find it a good study of the will of the human spirit to survive. the unfaltered determination, no matter what it takes; be it money, sacrifices, all the human aspects are tested, in order to overcome such a fear-laiden thing as the end of the world.

i really do wonder what people of the earth are going to do when the end of the world is nigh. how will people prepare for such a disaster? what fate awaits for after the event has occurred?

remember the Great Flood? Noah was asked to build a huge ark in preparation for the flood to come, as told to him by God. God was displeased at man's wickedness and the corrupt earth, thus He decided to destroy everything on earth, so that He can rebuild it again. the movie closely resembled the story of Noah's ark.

there WERE several huge arks built to house animals and humans alike, especially when the earthquakes led to eruptions of volcanoes, to the thousands-of-foot-high tsunamis, which eventually made everywhere seem like there was only water, far and wide.

but will it turn out this way though?

we'll see the outcome, on Dec 21, 2012.

only 3years away..

welcome home baby...

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 19:03:57 GMT

and then my prayers were answered...alhamdulillah..syukur. i cant wait to meet him tmr...insya'allah.

aftr 2wks apart..i wonder what we should do to spend our reunion together..oh well...leave it to tmr...till then, ciao!

Anxiety

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 17:01:47 GMT

legs shaking
toes wiggling
heart racing
head assumes
hands sweaty
breathing, shallow
body warm
mobile, silent

im feeling anxious.
where art thou, my love?? i shall wait til morn'.

tonight..

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 18:03:03 GMT

tonight the world will stop|
stillness will envelop
time disregarded

but heart still beating
rhythmic drumbeats
dancing in its cage

waits, longs, yearns
for everything that's you
for everything that's to be given

a hug, a smile, a kiss
even if it doesnt leave me in bliss
i want it all, anything

as long as you're here
beside me
for as long as God shall grant it to me..

tonight's the night....but tomorrow will be a delightful present

the couple at the void deck..

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 14:32:37 GMT

there was a couple at the void deck, moments back.
the lady being massaged.

i remember when it was us, always there till dusk.
you being massaged.

i miss the feel of your broad shoulders, i cant wait to smolder
you again with love.

i miss the curls in your hair, i cannot anymore bear
another day without you.

the smiles on your face, i cant erase
repeats in my head.

you fill me up with hope, a dream of a future home
we'll get there someday..

2+1/2 more days to gooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!

like i said...

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 14:23:02 GMT

was happily going for break when..........my telemarketing boss called to tell me our jobs are put on hold cos the developer put the project on hold...good God!! what did i tell you?? i was sure there was gona be something coming up..oh man...now i gotta find another job, quick...

thank you, GOD!!!

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 20:43:54 GMT

well..before he flew off, he told me he might call frm S anneh's (older brother) phone. waited n waited til i told myself that perhaps he was busy and hasnt got the time, given the circumstances. but at ard 4.06am just nw, he made one, albeit a short one..aft S anneh took the phone fr a while, it got cut...im hoping fr another call...if it's possible..

anyways, he'll be flying home on thursday night..which means i only get to see him on friday anytime before work...lucky for me, thursday is the last day fr lessons!!!

3mre days till i can kiss him again!!! technically its 4 mre days, cos i only get to do so on friday...but watever!!!

mehh...no calls cmg in..nvm..wait till he gets back then!! miss him sooooo much!!!

sickkkkkkk

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 12:40:36 GMT

blocked nose.

cough.

slight fever.

changed voice.

headache.

argh...its the damn flu again!! started last week with sore throat. then blocked nose which ultimately leads to now. did i tell you how i hate being sick?? astaghfirullah al-azim!!

i remember the last time when i was sick like this and dad was away at south africa. that was hor-ri-ble!!! a few days before he came back, i got a letter saying that i'd failed my assessment and i had to withdraw frm sch. when dad came home, i had to make a decision as to which path to take to continue my journey..

and here i am again, just a few days before baby boo comes home and i'm sick. i hope no bad news will follow. but i will welcome another decision to choose another path for my life's journey...hope it's good news this time...

4more days!!! i cant wait to squeeze him in my arms again!!!