me got new lappie!! Acer Aspire D150. got it through singnet broadband promotion. so far so good..need to tweak some things here n there..and it's a go.
applied at MDIS for Degree in Mass Com. the course is pretty interesting. completed within 23-26mths, and the last part of it is to be completed at Oklahoma University over in the United States. travelling opportunity!! and if i get through, someone's gona get $300 cheque amount cos he referred me to the school..
my aunt insist i apply for SIM as well cos it's MOE-recognised. thing about it is, it'll take 4yrs to complete a degree there, plus, how much will really be subsidised? i think that it will eventually be about the same amt..
yesterday met him..had lunch together..talked..then he was sleepy so went home...n i went to woodlands to waste time. sat at the void deck near the 161 coffeeshop..just thinkin bout wat i need to do n all that..then thought of makin a move towards the pondok to waste some more time..
that was when i noticed something strange;
a guy in white t-shirt, with black sling bag, short hair that had brown dye and whose body is an overall plumpness..started following me.
i first noticed the fella when he was sitting a distance away from me..i was in my own world when i made my move, deciding to head to the pondok..then i relaxed n started looking at my surroundings..n noticed that that same guy was walking just a distance away..i somehow decided to stop; and he stopped. he then tried hiding himself behind the fence-like structure near the lift lobby of a block..he was lookin through the holes to see my movement.
i didnt know if he was really following me...so i tried walking again...n he started walking too...in my head i was like, so now where do i go?? something in me just said that i should just turn back towards the direction of the MRT. prayed real hard n tried to walk as fast as i can...looked around me to see if he was near me..no he wasnt..
the next time i turned to look, he was standing at the exact same spot where i decided to head back to the mrt..
someone can't stop this song from repeating in his head..hahaha!! i love this song too..been wondering if i should put it up in my blog cos i love what the lyrics say.....n boy, has Darin has grown up to look so handsome...watched the vid with him featuring Kat DeLuna...
Baby you, is the diamond that lasts forever And I just can't take a single step without you Baby to you, I'll always be a faithful lover 'Cause my heart can't make a single beat without you
VERSE You make me fly You get me high You turn my world to such a better place Your crazy touch The sweetest rush Is something that saved my life
CHORUS I wanna spend my nights and days between your arms Everyday breathing your love And even in my dreams I wanna be kissing your lips Baby breathing your love Breathing your love (love) love (love) love (love) Baby breathing your love (love) love (love) love (love) x2
Baby boo, only you can make me recover The lost parts of me I thought they'd gone a long time ago With you, life runs like the best love letter Was just an empty soul until you step into my show
repeat verse
repeat CHORUS
I wanna have that crazy love Wanna run it in my blood Want it taking over me Over me, over me, yeah
There's nothing I could say to you Nothing I could ever do to make you see What you mean to me All the pain, the tears I cried Still you never said goodbye and now I know How far you'd go
I know I let you down but it's not like that now This time I'll never let you go
CHORUS I will be all that you want and get myself together 'Cause you keep me from falling apart All my life, I'll be with you forever To get you through the day and make everything okay
I thought that I had everything I didn't know what life could bring But now I see, honestly You're the one thing I got right The only one I let inside Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down, I'll turn it all around 'Cause I would never let you go
repeat CHORUS
Without you I can't breathe I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave You're all I got, you're all I want, oh 'Cause without you I don't know what I'd do I can never, ever live a day without you Here with me, do you see you're all I need
repeat CHORUS 2x
sayang, you know i'll always love you..happy belated valentine's day..
anyways, i finally managed to watch a 'live' bellydancing performance! a friend had asked us to accompany him to Bugis -namely Arab Street- fr drinks..the place was damn cosy..it's called Ambrosia. we have to sit on the floor that has pillows against the walls and carpets strewn across the room..and we had to take off our shoes before entering, but none-the-matter. u can sheesha there also..
we were enjoying the conversation and by night, unbeknownst to us, there was to be a bellydancing performance..gosh..i kept admiring her...the way she gyrated to the music..i was in awe..
i had wanted to take up bellydancing cos it fascinated me...ALOT!! but i didnt hav much money for it..plus, i had wanted to watch a performance..and now i FINALLY get to watch it...
he told me wen we met that he'd watched MTV earlier at home and seen that there was a show on artistes spending so much n so much on their other half..in arguments, people tend to bring this up as an issue...oh, i spend so much on you n this is hw you repay me..even i admit to this kinda nonsense..
is a person worth that much to the other?? in terms of money value??? now how about this phrase: i invested my life in you..
i was told that in reply to what i'd brought up.. -.-"
Guess this means you're sorry You're standing at my door Guess this means you take back All you said before Like how much you wanted Anyone but me Said you'd never come back But here you are again
(Chorus) Cuz we belong together now, yeah Forever united here somehow, yeah You got a piece of me And honestly My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you
Maybe I was stupid For telling you goodbye Maybe I was wrong For tryin' to pick a fight I know that I've got issues But you're pretty messed up too Either way I found out I'm nothing without you
(Chorus)
Being with you is so dysfunctional I really shouldn't miss you, But I can't let you go, Oh yeah
Cuz we belong together now, (yeah yeah) Forever united here somehow, (yeah) You got a piece of me And honestly My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you
Cuz we belong (yeah) together now (together now), (yeah) Forever united here somehow, (yeah) You got a piece of me And honestly My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you
A lot's happened over the days..and with Bella's help, i managed to get through it..THANK YOU babe.
lately i've been feeling like im not needed. that whether im there or not doesnt make that much of a difference. i feel like i might as well not be there. i guess yesterday's discussion has started the wheels turning. frankly i don't really like how things are, but i also dont really want to care as much anymore. no point putting my heart on my sleeve if everytime it gets stabbed. for seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, it's been this way..*sigh*
until the day we get the things we want out of life..things will be the way they are..im sick of it..but im praying hard for tt day to come soon..so we can finally be the people we want to be..
bella asked me to update..lol. i told her i used to update almost everyday last time..bt nowadays have yet to be as consistent.
well, the interview with MOE went well..i'm quite sure i'll be called up again..God willing. hopefully for another interview and another step closer to becoming a teacher?? they said they'd reply in 2wks. so prob sometime nxt wk..im already envisioning myself handling a class of my own..heh. kind of excited.
i had wanted to blog abt some stuff but i forgot wat abt..
anyway, my cousins in sweden got wind of me becoming a teacher..yasmin sounded pretty excited..their mom asked them to pray for me..hehe..cute. in sch they were supposed to do some supplementary subject..i forgot, Musa or Yasmin..decided on science cos they wana change the world after seeing The Hulk..ya know..experiments n stuff like tt..Ali on the other hand..chose cooking..cos he gets to eat the food afterwards..lol..his mum asked him to change..be he stood firm saying he liked it...ahahhaha! i miss those kids..the last time they were here, yasmin clung on to me the whold time..even brushed her cheeks against my hand like a cat would..LOL..that girl...damn smart!!
anyways..nothing more now..anything new, i'll try update asap..til then, ciao!
remember the saying, "do unto others what you want others do unto you"? it is what i live by.
there was one time wen he got mad at me for not doing the thing he wanted. in one of my replies, i told him i'm tired of always doing things for others and never doing anything for me. so he says, "not everyone gets given the gift by God to help others. if you are one who believes God, you'll understand this."
true, but i also believe that everyone is given the equal chance to do so; it is up to them to step up and accept the task. i help because i try to be in that someone's shoe. helplessness. yearning for a ray of light in the darkness. i'll be happy if i manage to help the person move a step further into the light.
i also help because i know there will be a reward for me. not necessarily in this material world, but i'm focusing on rewards in the world hereafter. i hope for a place up there near God. i do it, hoping it will help atone for whatever sins i have done. furthermore, i help because i dont want the world we live in to be so cold. it is cold enough as it is. much warmth is needed. "what the world needs now is love, sweet love."
if you could step up to it, help others. here's ending this entry with a song formerly performed by Michael Jackson. I like James Morrison's version. heh.
Man In The Mirror
Gotta make a change For once in my life It's gonna feel real good Gonna make a difference Gonna make it right
As I turned up my collar on A favorite winter coat This wind is blowin' my mind I see the kids in the street With not enough to eat Who am I to be blind Pretending not to see their needs
A summer's disregard A broken bottle top And a one man's soul They follow each other On the wind ya' know 'Cause they got nowhere to go That's why I want you to know
CHORUS I'm starting with the man in the mirror I'm asking him to change his ways And no message could have been any clearer If you wanna make the world a better place Take a look at yourself and then make a change, yey Na na na, na na na, na na na na oh ho
I've been a victim of A selfish kinda love It's time that I realize There are some with no home Not a nickel to loan Could it be really mean pretending that they're not alone
A willow deeply scarred Somebody's broken heart And a washed out dream They follow the pattern of the wind ya' see 'Cause they got nowhere to be That's why I'm starting with me
CHORUS 2x
I'm starting with the man in the mirror I'm asking him to change his ways No message could have been any clearer If you wanna make the world a better place Take a look at yourself and then make the change You gotta get it right, while you got the time You can't close your, your mind
That mind, that mind, that mind That mind, oh yeah, oh no No message could have been any clearer If you wanna make the world a better place Take a look at yourself then make that change (Na na na, na na na, na na na na)
hey ppl...long time no blog..anyway the latest update on me..withdrew from Lasalle, applied for MOE. got an sms inviting me for an interview..wish me luck!!
wat ive bn doin lately...finding a job. lol. other than that, just been chillin around with friends..heh. today went to ang mo kio town park to play at the swing. hahah..i mean, how kiddy is that?? but oh well, it was great fun and we were laughing, goofing around.
haizz..so many things have happened with so many lives involved. im glad everything turned out ok.
for some time now, ive been wandering aimlessly. i thought i knew my way, but i guess i was wrong. whatever it is, it will definitely give me the life i yearn for. with God by my side, there is nothing to fear. cos i trust Him.
i didnt like it that somebody said "you belong to us". it's so selfish. i dont belong to anybody except God. sure, i may have a part of you; but in the end, my life is still in God's hands. only He can decide wen to create or take away my life..and MY LIFE IS MY OWN. live yours fully and truly. dont try to put ur dreams in me.
that's all i have to say...for now. til next time, take care y'all.
Born on April 4, 1986. Loves her friends and family.. Poetry expresses her inner-most emotions. Art is her creativity. Music is her life...Let's see what you think of her.
..waT mAkes u Diff3reNt maKeS yOu b3aUtifuL.. --backstreet boys
..d3stiNy is noT a mATteR of cHaNc3, it's a MatT3r of choICe;it is NoT a ThinG to be wAiteD for, it is a tHiNg to be aChi3VeD.. --William Jennings Bryan
..a JouRN3y of a tHouSanD MiLes muSt beGin wiTh a siNgL3 St3P.. --Lao Tzu
..no aCt oF kInDneSs, no MatTer hOw sMalL, is eVeR wAst3d --AeSop
..beHavIouR is A miRrOr wHiCh eveRyoNe dIsPlayS His imAgE in --g3oThe
..fri3ndShiP is On3 miNd in Tw0 BodI3s.. --Mencius
..yOu Giv3 liTtL3 wh3N you Give youR posSessIOnS. It is wHeN you giV3 youRseLF tHAt you tRUly giVE..
..tHe b3st aNd MosT beAuTifuL tHinGs in th3 woRLd cAnNot be se3N or eVen tOucH3d. Th3Y MuSt be F3lt wiTH the heARt.. --Helen Keller
Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.
It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.
At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult
You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul
