humanity, since the dawn of time has always been fighting for true RELIGION. i'd like to see them fight for true PEACE.

i'm tired of hearing the term "holy war". and i'm tired of it being used like it's a toy. i always wondered why humans can't live without fighting. and i always wondered why some maniacal belief resort to killings.

did God give mere mortals the right to judge? NO! for He is the high judge. i sometimes wonder how court officials will be judged when they stand before God in His kingdom; especially if they put a person of innocence behind bars for a long time without trial due to lack of evidence. most severely, bestowing upon them the death sentence.

it just saddens me.

in all of these, i still believe there is goodness even in the heart of the purest of evil. it is only so because evil is only born through having lost the way. just think back to the ANGEL, Lucifer Morningstar. why did he fall and become SATAN, despite his love for God? he lost his way. he also influenced some of his brothers to follow his way of truth. Archangel Michael and his other brothers on the other hand is true to their love for God and bowed down to the first man, Adam, for God's love was what created man. by defying this love of God, it is like defying God himself.

i believe in HOPE. for hope is the light and the path of truth and of justice and mercy and all that is good. so i hope, in God's name that truth will be realised. Love for one another will start by understanding each other.

i dont really know how this came about. all i know is, it was a really negative feeling..

in the dream, it's night time and my family and i were in the car going somewhere. as we were on our way to our destination, i noticed a little boy following us; he was running to keep up with our car. now, that boy, the way he looked was like that of the little boy in the movie, The Grudge. i said some prayers and i end up swapping seats with my sister who usually seats on the right side of the car, just behind the driver's seat. this time, she was the one panicking cos she saw something following us. from where i was sitting, i saw nothing.

once we reached our destination, i already felt a sense of panic, wondering what was going to happen next as we would be outside our car, unprotected from the elements. as we got to our seat, i felt a sense of foreboding. not too long after that, our surroundings seemed more darker than the night. things were coming out from the dark. it felt like pure evil and malice. again, i read out some prayers (cant remember which verses i cited). things cleared away and eventually i woke up.

when i woke up, the surrounding outside was windy and threatening of the coming rain..now the rain's subsided and things felt like it was washed away...cleaned, cleansed. i'm wondering where this nightmare is rooted from. the night before, i was watching X-Family, a mandarin series starring the group Fahrenheit. they were talking about the alignment of the 9 stars, causing a solar eclipse that will last a whole day. during the time of alignment, evil will be out and roaming and creating havoc. the Ma Gua's(normal humans) will not feel anything, but those with Yi Neng powers will be battling for the safety of the world.

this coincides with the prediction of what's going to happen on Dec 21, 2012. it is said that the planets will form a perfect alignment and form a total solar eclipse that will be the longest one to date. haizz...

my future...

our future...

i don't know what the future holds..but this i definitely know. i want to be able to stand by your side through the hardships and the successes. will we stay or will we part..only God knows. if God has written in His book that we were not meant to be, i will accept it. for i have experienced a gift so fulfilling that i now dont really mind if it should end at any time. the love i yearned for has been given. the overcoming of trials and tribulations made me understand the inner works of a relationship. i may not know what LOVE fully encompasses, but i was shown how much great love can be bestowed upon another.

for all these years, i really appreciate the chance you've given me; of being loved and of giving it. you are my first; i truly hope you're my last. but if God should state otherwise, i would still be happy. for i feel really lucky to have been given someone as special as you. i want to really really thank you for the times you've had to endure my stubbornness, my laziness, my blurness, my hurting you..i think i am such a dud; but still, you stand by me. for so many times, i wonder why. but thank you. thank you. thank you. i don't care how many times i say it, it's not enough.

for this, i love you so much. i hope i can repay you for giving me the best experiences of my life.

AWESOME!!! that's what i've got to say. they have both the Taiwanese and Japanese versions. i preferred the Taiwanese plot because there's so much of twist and turns, with Rui Xi's true identity nearly being discovered. however, the plot remains that only the school doctor and Quan are the only people in the boy's school who knows. in the Japanese version however, eventually everyone got to know that Mizuki is in fact, a girl.

the gist of the story is that a girl named Lu Rui Xi (Ella from S.H.E) / Ashyia Mizuki (Horikita Maki) gets her life changed after seeing Zuo Yi Quan (Wu Zun from Fahrenheit) / Sano Izumi (Oguri Shun) high jump on tv. upon knowing that her idol has taken leave from the world of high jump, she takes it upon herself to enroll into the school where he is: an all-boys school. for that to happen, she has to pretend to be a guy. drama enfolds when a fellow classmate, Jin Xiu Yi (Jiro Wang from Fahrenheit) / Nakatsu Shuici (Ikuta Toma) takes interest in her, leaving him confused as to his own sexual orientation. in the Taiwanese version, Rui Xi made the decision to leave, but was prevented from doing so and even though she was about to tell Quan about her identity, it never came out. in the Japanese version, everyone found out about it, so she made the decision to leave.

i'm hoping both versions will have season 2. right now i'm re-watching the Taiwanese version because of Ella's superb acting (seriously didnt knonw she could act like that!!!) and of course, it's cos of Wu Zun!!! my god!! wen my sis gave me the link, i played the first episode..when i got to know it was in mandarin, i was like, ok, it's in mandarin..i thought it was going to be in japanese, since the title is already in japanese...im more used to watching japanese drama/anime. but anyway, i thought wat the heck, just watch...and then i saw Wu Zun...and i got stuck...then i saw Ella's acting and i also got stuck...hahahha!! the Japanese one was average, i would say..as compared to the taiwanese version...but that's my personal opinion...

anyway, here are some things to look at...

Hana Kimi Japan: Ikuta Toma, Horikita Maki, Oguri Shun

Kagurazakawa n Sano kiss...Sano cant tolerate even just a bit of alcohol and kisses anybody he sees

Maid Cafe LOL!!!

Hana Kimi Taiwan: Wu Zun, Ella, Jiro Wang

Wu Zun!!! can you believe he was ard 27 when filming this??
sigh..... =^.^=

for a long time, when i was a little younger, i cant seem to see myself past my mid-20s. i kept wondering why though. was i not interested in what my future holds? no, im interested. was i not sure of what i was going to be like at that age?? yes, i wasnt really sure, and i still am not. but then, now a new theory just came to mind...what if 2012 was real and i had already been given a sign? because by dec 21, 2012, i would have already been 26. how 'bout that?

in the quran and several other religious books, it is foretold that you will see a great bird in the sky. this i saw, but in my dream..was it a sign?

i had ever dreamed of an opening on my ceiling, and in the opening are swirls of magma. it just keeps circling in a slow motion. what does it mean?

today's dream was even freaky. i had dreamt of meeting a friend and her younger sister, except that they dont look exactly the way they are in real life. it's like, the essence is them, but their faces are strangers ive never met - AT ALL. in my dream, i had paid really close attention to the younger sister's face.

what really rang a bell in my head was when i was at woodlands just now - in the same conscious world that im typing this blog - i saw the exact same girl with exact same looks and exact same height. but she was just a stranger. so i have no freakin' clue as to what it means...

yesterday night as we were waiting for the bus, i looked up. my, what a splendid sight! i've seen it a few times but this one was really clear for all to see...he also looked up and was surprised to know such a thing exists...it was the first time he'd seen it.

as both our heads were kept turned up to the night, passers-by did the same, wondering why.

a rainbow circling the moon!!!

legs shaking
toes wiggling
heart racing
head assumes
hands sweaty
breathing, shallow
body warm
mobile, silent

im feeling anxious.
where art thou, my love?? i shall wait til morn'.